Hesitation
I come up with lots of ideas in my idle time for things I could do. Personal projects, new careers, companies to start, things to write… occasionally one of those ideas will get stuck in my head long enough to motivate me to start working on it, but I almost always get to a point where I let something convince me to abandon the project. Maybe I lose interest or get stuck on some detail and never move past it, but most often what kills a project is a loss of confidence.
I’ll become convinced that I’m not up to the task or that the idea doesn’t hold water or that my premise was wrong. I strongly dislike conflict and will avoid it to a fault which must contribute to the problem. Maybe I never learned how to deal with criticism (even from myself) or that it is ok to be wrong. Maybe I just never learned that you’re supposed to just pick up and keep going despite these feelings that I’m sure everyone experiences.
I’m not sure I had a point other than to say those things out loud.
